For the limelight.

Dear Diary, 

Do you know anybody who doesn't love the limelight? We all do. Right?

Who doesn't want to show off what we got? It's hypocrisy not to raise hands.

There is actually nothing wrong with it because everybody is entitled to be given an opportunity to shine anyway. Apparently, we all deserve to be in that tiny little space with light sometimes.

However, there are people when they love the limelight so much that they would do anything to be on that space in any chance they could get and that would be... always. 

Yes, they do anything to stand out, even to the point of trying to make others look ridiculous. Ridiculous in the sense that original plans are scrapped out and they go beyond to what has been talked about and cleared out. Selfishness? You name it. For the love of limelight.

If people were just aware of the intention then definitely, they would not stick to the plan as well. What really happened? When traitors are busy with themselves, the others were so concerned with everybody's welfare. Where's justice?

And there's nothing that could spill from the mouth  of those who have been a good follower but "IF ONLY".

IF ONLY...

-The Emotional Blogger of the Diary on an Emotional Blog-

Confused. And it's making me so sad right now.

Dear Diary,

Confused.

That's what I'm now.

I'm caught in between two things. Figuratively. And it's hard to decide.

The first one would make me so happy. The second one would make others happy.

The first needs a lot of time and effort. The second one can be set aside for the meantime.

The first would start everything. The second would prolong the agony.

The first is not so sure. The second would be more organized.

I'm really not sure which is more important and which would make things right at the end.

And It's making me so sad right now.

-The Emotional Blogger of the Diary of an Emotional Blog-

Never to Expect. (One lesson which I keep on forgetting)

Dear Diary,

Never to expect.

That is one lesson that I keep on forgetting.

There were a lot of things that happened to my life (I think others can relate as well) which made me realize that it's bad not so good to expect on something, especially if it's not even there yet...

Or even if that something is already there. Because you can never know there would be something that would come up in the last minute and would totally ruin that something which is already there. Am I making sense here?

Now, it has been emphasized to me once again. Greatly. Unexpectedly. 

And this time, I'm not really sure if I'm learning it. I'm ashamed because I expected something to push through. But on the last minute, it took a complete turn and it seems I could not do anything but accept the fact that it's not gonna happen anymore.  Excitement took a complete turn as well. If you know what I mean.

-The Emotional Blogger of the Diary of an Emotional Blog -

Why Did You Like and Comment On Her Facebook Picture?

Dear Diary,

I have to admit, I tend to be like the lady in the photo above. Figuratively. Not literally. Not always. Just sometimes.

I get so paranoid whenever I post something and he doesn't comment and instead, he commented on another girl's post. Not only that, I would hate him. And would hate the girl too. to the max!!! Just because he is supposed to comment to my post.  Enough. 

I don't know if this is something to do with me being a girl or just me being me. 

You see, some of my girl friends actually confess being like that at some point of their loving relationships. But I'm not still sure if it's normal or not. In fact, there are times when I would remind myself not to feel like that again because there's no point of dwelling too much on the issue.

But there are times when I can't help it. I would then start ranting about him. He has changed. He is not like before. He does not love me. He has found somebody else. And all those blahs!

Well, I can't explain it further. And you don't have to explain as well. Let's just think about it as a mystery yet to be solved.

-The Emotional Blogger of The Diary of an Emotional Blog-

Severely drained.

Dear Diary,

Severely drained.

That is how I'm feeling right now.

To the point of being able to cry in front of my family.

The last thing I did that was when I was in Elementary. And I never imagined to happen that again.

I'm actually not that type of person. In fact, I always keep problems to myself. I always hide feelings and let my tears fell when I'm already alone.

But this time, I feel like everything in me has been exhausted and nothing is left. 

Time. Energy. Resources. Even people. I don't have it anymore.

And what is my last resort? Drown myself with my own tears.

Where can I go next huh?I don't know. I don't know anymore.

-The Emotional Blogger of the Diary of an Emotional blog-

A Sweet Revenge.

Dear Diary, 

I'm happy again! I received a good news. The heavens are at my side and things start to fall into place. I'm loving it! 

See? See? I don't know why I tend to get what I want most of the time. 

But yes! A sweet revenge, that is. 

Give it to me, baby!

-The Emotional Blogger of The Diary of an Emotional Blog-

Insensitivity

Dear Diary,

I just wonder why we are so insensitive. When that moment comes when people tend to be like that to us, we could not do anything but be speechless, show off a fake smile, and pretend to agree to what they have said and done. Because after all, we tend to be like that to other people too. Helpless? Darn.

-The Emotional Blogger of The Diary of an Emotional Blog-