Dear Diary,
THAT UNEASY FEELING.
You thought it's already fine. You thought you're just going to be ok with it.
You convinced yourself you're excited. You tell yourself you're now brave enough to see.
Everything's fine. I will be ok. Or so you thought.
So, you waited.
Then when it's there, boom!
You realize that convincing yourself to just let it pass is simply a stupid thing.
You realize you're not a martyr and you have feelings too.
And it cuts you deeply.
Because you know, deep within you, you haven't really moved on.
And it still hurts.
And it brings back those memories.
Which you consider stupid by the way.
But then again, the reality is that you're still hurt and you hurt when this realization hit you directly on the face.
Point blank. Direct. Ouch.
THAT UNEASY FEELING.
-The Emotional Blogger of The Diary of an Emotional Blog-
