Why are you so ambitious?

Dear Diary,

Why are you so ambitious? Sorry but you're actually not THAT good. You can do it. Fine. But it's not something that you should flaunt every time there's a chance because, frankly, you really don't look good doing it. 

I'm sorry but it's not natural. Trying hard.  Don't force it. Please. I'd say that a thousand times.

-The Emotional Blogger of the Diary of an Emotional Blog -

For the limelight.

Dear Diary, 

Do you know anybody who doesn't love the limelight? We all do. Right?

Who doesn't want to show off what we got? It's hypocrisy not to raise hands.

There is actually nothing wrong with it because everybody is entitled to be given an opportunity to shine anyway. Apparently, we all deserve to be in that tiny little space with light sometimes.

However, there are people when they love the limelight so much that they would do anything to be on that space in any chance they could get and that would be... always. 

Yes, they do anything to stand out, even to the point of trying to make others look ridiculous. Ridiculous in the sense that original plans are scrapped out and they go beyond to what has been talked about and cleared out. Selfishness? You name it. For the love of limelight.

If people were just aware of the intention then definitely, they would not stick to the plan as well. What really happened? When traitors are busy with themselves, the others were so concerned with everybody's welfare. Where's justice?

And there's nothing that could spill from the mouth  of those who have been a good follower but "IF ONLY".

IF ONLY...

-The Emotional Blogger of the Diary on an Emotional Blog-

Confused. And it's making me so sad right now.

Dear Diary,

Confused.

That's what I'm now.

I'm caught in between two things. Figuratively. And it's hard to decide.

The first one would make me so happy. The second one would make others happy.

The first needs a lot of time and effort. The second one can be set aside for the meantime.

The first would start everything. The second would prolong the agony.

The first is not so sure. The second would be more organized.

I'm really not sure which is more important and which would make things right at the end.

And It's making me so sad right now.

-The Emotional Blogger of the Diary of an Emotional Blog-

Never to Expect. (One lesson which I keep on forgetting)

Dear Diary,

Never to expect.

That is one lesson that I keep on forgetting.

There were a lot of things that happened to my life (I think others can relate as well) which made me realize that it's bad not so good to expect on something, especially if it's not even there yet...

Or even if that something is already there. Because you can never know there would be something that would come up in the last minute and would totally ruin that something which is already there. Am I making sense here?

Now, it has been emphasized to me once again. Greatly. Unexpectedly. 

And this time, I'm not really sure if I'm learning it. I'm ashamed because I expected something to push through. But on the last minute, it took a complete turn and it seems I could not do anything but accept the fact that it's not gonna happen anymore.  Excitement took a complete turn as well. If you know what I mean.

-The Emotional Blogger of the Diary of an Emotional Blog -

Why Did You Like and Comment On Her Facebook Picture?

Dear Diary,

I have to admit, I tend to be like the lady in the photo above. Figuratively. Not literally. Not always. Just sometimes.

I get so paranoid whenever I post something and he doesn't comment and instead, he commented on another girl's post. Not only that, I would hate him. And would hate the girl too. to the max!!! Just because he is supposed to comment to my post.  Enough. 

I don't know if this is something to do with me being a girl or just me being me. 

You see, some of my girl friends actually confess being like that at some point of their loving relationships. But I'm not still sure if it's normal or not. In fact, there are times when I would remind myself not to feel like that again because there's no point of dwelling too much on the issue.

But there are times when I can't help it. I would then start ranting about him. He has changed. He is not like before. He does not love me. He has found somebody else. And all those blahs!

Well, I can't explain it further. And you don't have to explain as well. Let's just think about it as a mystery yet to be solved.

-The Emotional Blogger of The Diary of an Emotional Blog-

Severely drained.

Dear Diary,

Severely drained.

That is how I'm feeling right now.

To the point of being able to cry in front of my family.

The last thing I did that was when I was in Elementary. And I never imagined to happen that again.

I'm actually not that type of person. In fact, I always keep problems to myself. I always hide feelings and let my tears fell when I'm already alone.

But this time, I feel like everything in me has been exhausted and nothing is left. 

Time. Energy. Resources. Even people. I don't have it anymore.

And what is my last resort? Drown myself with my own tears.

Where can I go next huh?I don't know. I don't know anymore.

-The Emotional Blogger of the Diary of an Emotional blog-

A Sweet Revenge.

Dear Diary, 

I'm happy again! I received a good news. The heavens are at my side and things start to fall into place. I'm loving it! 

See? See? I don't know why I tend to get what I want most of the time. 

But yes! A sweet revenge, that is. 

Give it to me, baby!

-The Emotional Blogger of The Diary of an Emotional Blog-

Insensitivity

Dear Diary,

I just wonder why we are so insensitive. When that moment comes when people tend to be like that to us, we could not do anything but be speechless, show off a fake smile, and pretend to agree to what they have said and done. Because after all, we tend to be like that to other people too. Helpless? Darn.

-The Emotional Blogger of The Diary of an Emotional Blog-

Enthusiasm is just so 10 degrees below zero.

Dear Diary,

That moment when you don't feel like going to somewhere anymore. That moment when you no longer like doing what you repeatedly do. That moment when your enthusiasm is just so 10 degrees below zero. 

Negativity. Boredom. Anxiety. You just feel 'em all together and all you wanna do is to hide somewhere and shut yourself with your own somewhat solitude. You just want to be alone and you want to scream that to everybody. Because you feel more secure when you're in your comfort zone... all by yourself.

If you only you could do that and if only you have the luxury of time... and if only you are not bombarded with so many demands. 

But I guess, you just have to endure everything out because that's just how cruel the world is. Or that's just how you perceive it to be.

Poor you, pal. Get some rest tomorrow. Just wish you could do that.

-The Emotional Blogger of the Diary of an Emotional blog-

For the person who said she is not stupid.

Dear Diary,

Have you ever tried telling somebody else that you're not stupid even if no one is really telling you that?

How would you define such moment? 

Feeling so stupid when nobody is telling you.... that is really being stupid. Much more if you blame others for feeling so stupid.

Stupidity comes from within. It isn't driven by the things outside. It cannot be influenced. 

You can always choose to be stupid or NOT primarily because you are the doer of your own actions. So if you feel that way, you can always choose to simply keep your mouth shut, think straight and do what is right. If not, can you think what does that mean?

-The Blogger of the Diary of an Emotional blog-

I'm nicer than nice and I'm nice to nice people.

Dear Diary,

Are you nice?

I am.

Whether you believe it or not, I am. N. I. C. E.

Yes!

Not the nicey-nosey-overly nice though because I still get some I-don't-like first impressions from people. (snob, rude, strict... please! Don't judge the book by its bookmark.)

But I'm the type who would be nice to you once you're nice to me. And once you realize that I'm not S-R-S and that I'm completely the other way around. 

If you would know me better, you'll know I'm nicer than "nice" and I'm nice to nice people.

And lastly,

Alright? So, be nice!

-The Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" Blog-

Inhale. Exhale. So, help me God.

Dear Diary,

Have you ever encountered that feeling of not being able to breathe well?

That's what I'm feeling right now. It's hard to grasp air and when I do, my back screams in pain.

I'm so sick and tired of this. So sick and tired. Literally. Figuratively.

Inhale. Exhale. So, help me God.

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" Blog-

P.S. Ohh cough! Please go away!

Time to hit the sacks. Sucks.

Dear Diary,

It is so 'what-the-hell-has-happened-moment' to know that you have been "slashed off" from the original plan. Isn't it?

That moment when you already expected something because it has already been confirmed, then all of sudden, there's a change of plan... and you're no longer part of it.

Jawbreaking! (if there is such thing) Much more if you have prepared for it, right? It's like WHHHHAAATTT??!!! With matching cover-your-face award! Jeez.

And you simply don't have a choice but back-off, do something else, and pretend you're ok.

Well, I'm not.

Time to hit the sacks. Sucks.

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" Blog-

This is a curious case of a Nosy B*tch!

Dear Diary,

I just really don't get it when people meddle over a relationship they knew nothing about. It's a nuisance. Pathetic. Uncalled for.

Why can't they just stop giving unsolicited advise and hasty generalization? They don't even know the context of the situation! More so, they don't even know the person yet. Please. 

This is a curious case of a Nosy B*tch!

Maybe, they do that because:

1. They got nothing to do with their life but stick their noses to other people's issues.

2. They are born to be bitter. 

3. They are just jealous.

4. They are unhappy and they want others to be like that too. (Geez.)

5. They have issues with themselves and their relationships but they are just too preoccupied with ruining that of others. 

How I wish they could just back-off and try to make themselves happy. "Life is too precious to waste". And certainly, minding other people's business is a waste of time. It doesn't even help at all.

Well, if you're like that, I'm sorry men! Go get a life! 

Mwah.

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional Blog-

I was excited to come home. I thought I would end this day with a smile. But...

Dear Diary,

I was excited to come home. I thought I would end this day with a smile.

I was tired but I wanted to be awake because I wanna make up for my absence.

But tears fell. And continue to fall.

Because I realized that at the end of the day, my decisions would always be wrong.

And I would never do things right. 

I just wish to be happy.

I want joy!

Stop killing me, please.

Sick and tired.

Dear Diary,

SICK and TIRED.

Sick. Got colds. Got cough. Got fever. How cool is that?

Tired. I don't wanna work. I wanna sleep. Can I have a long vacation?

Pleaassseee...

 -The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" Blog-

 

The boy who likes me. Kids these days

Dear Diary, 

Today, I saw a boy.

The boy who likes me.

And remember, he is my student. 

And I teach 2nd graders.

How did I know?

Last Friday during my class on their section, I noticed that there was a group of pupils who kept on looking at me while they were talking (Disclaimer: I allowed them to talk that time because I gave them a group activity.) and they have this "teasing" smiles.

One of the girls came to me and said that one boy in that group LIKES me. Not the "I like the teacher" type but the "crush"type.

And there the boy blushed. His face was so red. And the other students teased.They pushed him towards me but the boy resisted.

I was speechless for a little while. I did not know what to say. I tried to ignore by going to another group and check their work.

.......................................................

To make the story short, I ended up having a sermon talk on rules and regulations inside the classroom and teacher-student/ student-student relationship. Of course, my role is to be their second mother and them, my own kids. Emphasized that to them.

And whenever I see that boy again, I can't help but smile.

KIDS THESE DAYS. 

Wew!!!!

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" blog-

Oh, how I love Fridays.

Dear Diary,


"It's morning again.


Get up and wear a perfect smile!


Embrace the day with sheer delight and thank God for an added life."

Oh, how I love Fridays. 

Oh, how I love Friday mornings.

I embrace it!!

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" Blog-

Piggy Syndrome

Dear Diary, 

I can't take a nap. I can't sleep.

I want to. *Yawn*

I'm so full. *Burp* Excuse me. ;) 

Piggy syndrome: Full alert! LOL

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" Blog-

P.S.

I don't know why I get so sleepy after eating. Is it just me?

A problem-free life never makes a strong and good person.

Dear Diary, 

I just wanna share this message to you sent to me via sms:

"Smooth roads never make good drivers. Smooth seas never make good sailors. Clear skies never make good pilots. A problem-free life never makes a strong and good person."

So, be strong in facing life's challenges.

Don't ask "Why me?",

Instead say "Try me!"

Oh... TRY ME, baby!!! Good day, lovely!!!




-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" Blog-

To where do you belong?

Dear Diary,

I'm just too lazy and tired to blog today.

 

You know, I'm actually working hard to go upwards on Maslow's HEIRARCHY OF NEEDS. But yeah, I'm still stuck on the bottom part. And I get tired already.How much more if I'm already up there? 

How about you? To where do you belong?

Should take a rest now. Ciao!

 

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" Blog-

When people are guilty, they tend to be so reactive.

Dear Diary,

When people are guilty, they tend to be so reactive.

I realized that now. Not only now. A couple of times already.

Sometimes, I react so much that even if I'm not directly accused, I grumble and rant...NONSTOP!

 

'Till I satisfy myself, begin to calm down, stop being defensive and woah! Reality bites. Tsk.

Guilty, eh? You bet.

 

Today is one example. 

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" blog-

P.S. 

I should avoid talking too much from now on. Oh?!

Professionals tend to be UNPROFESSIONAL with professionals in a professional workplace.

Dear Diary, 

If you have something to say, can't you just say it directly?

If you have a complain, can't you just create a formal approach?

If you have issues, can't you be brave enough to embrace the issues?

Blind items are for narrow-minded people.

Backbiting is unforgivable.

Creating an issue which should never be an issue, at the first place is just so pathetic.

 

Ggggrrrrr... 

I just don't get it when professionals tend to be UNPROFESSIONAL with professionals in a professional workplace.

What a great day to start the week! (Insert Sarcasm here)

 

-The Emotional Blogger on "The Diary of an Emotional" blog- 

P.S. 

"Please do not sleep during office/working hours."

Bad joke. LOL

 

Signs you're falling in love. No, I'm not in love.

Dear Diary,

Guilty?

No, I'm not falling in love.

I'm in love.

I'm in love head-over-heels.

I'm crazy in love.

I'm beyond being in love.

But yeah, I'm falling in love with the same person over and over again.

<3 <3 <3

xoxo,

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" blog-

Photo found on facebook

I'm getting married!

Dear Diary,

"I'm getting married!" 

That was what I posted yesterday and unbelievably, a lot of people reacted  to it especially on Facebook.  Congratulations, they say.

excerpt from the Facebook comments of my blogpost

LOL

C'mon people! "I'm getting married" is different from "I'm getting married soon" or "I'm getting married this month"!

Might be that my "I'm getting married" means "I'm getting married next year" or "I'm getting married 5 years from now". 

Right? Right!

So, relax and chill! Don't be pressured. 

Funny.

 -The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" blog-

P.S.

Weh?! *wink*

Tears of Joy.

Dear Diary, 

I'm getting MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!

*tears of joy* *speechless*

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" blog-

Me is a jealous.

Dear Diary,

So I got resurrected earlier. As you know, a visitor killed me yesterday with pain but now, I'm alive, awake, enthusiastic! 

Wazzup?

I got p*ssed off earlier this morning because I got annoyed with something. Somebody once again commented on somebody's post  and I did not like the comment. It made me rage with fury out of jealousy! Beat that! 

Guess what? I'm a super duper jealous type of person, not the nagger version though. Whenever I find something not appealing (or whatever) to my emotions, I don't really vent my jealousy out to the person concerned. I just keep quiet and vent it out somewhere else like on this blog. Especially when that person doesn't say the truth and just keeps on denying what has been done. Errr.

Well, I was not really the jealous-type before... until what happened last January. 

Oh well, basically, what I hate the most is that "my simples requests are not granted" and that "same mistakes are repeated" every now and then. Double Errr.

Tsk. Fine. :(

-The Emotional Bloggers of "The Diary of an Emotional" blog-

 

So in love today.

Dear Diary,

I'm soooo in love today (despite having dysmenorrhea and all) because my special someone called and guess what we talked about? Marriage! Ha!

I'm really excited! Not that I'm really excited but I love the feeling of having to plan my own special day (I'm talking about the "Wedding" here). I got a little bit envious, insecured, pressured when I saw my own best friend walked down the aisle last Saturday and I wish I would be able to experience the same thing too... in the near future. *wishful thinking*

I am still not feeling well for having a RED TIDE today but I got another RED which made me happy at the end of the day! 

I love LOVE! 

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" blog-

Today is hell!

Dear Diary,

Today is hell!

I have a visitor this month and I super-duper hate it. Actually, this visitor visits me every month and I always freak out whenever I see this visitor. Why? It kills me! Nah.

The pain this visitor brings is always unbearable. It makes me cry. It makes me mad. It makes me want to be numb for a little while. I can't do my tasks and work. I simply wanna sleep.

I can't wait to end this day because tomorrow will be my resurrection. Ha!

Oh Dysmenorrhea! No doubt I hate you so much!

 

Press "LIKE" if you can relate. Is there such thing here?

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" blog-

Excuse me, I'm not the only emotional here. Hello!

Dear Diary,

GIRLS are generally emotional. That is why I don't bother revealing to the whole world that I'm an emotional (tend to be over emotional though).  The world would be a very boring place to live in if girls were born to be plain, dull, and pokerfaced. 

True enough, girls tend to  be emotional to the slightest detail. I'm not seeing it as something negative, rather positive because it only goes to show that WE CARE. Naks to the 100th level of a skyscraper!!!!

 If men could not understand this, they would see it as "overacting" but from a girl's point-of-view, it is just an expression that everything means a lot to us. That's how we show love, basically. Amen.

My gosh, I'm quite serious now. Somehow, I'm affected with the image (above) which I saw in FB. Geez.

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" blog-

I just killed myself.

Dear Diary,

Sorry I wasn't able to write yesterday since I was only home for about an hour. 

You see, I figuratively killed myself...with happiness! hahaha.

I traveled 5 hours to a place with a name starting with letter B for a wedding. The wedding happened yesterday morning (it's not mine, by the way) and it ended at about 1pm. After that, I traveled back to my hometown (that's another 5 hours) and arrived at 6pm. When I got home, I just took a quick shower and prepared myself to go out to celebrate SOCIAL MEDIA DAY with Social Media users, of course. The celebration ended at around 11pm but my "escapade" did not end there 'coz I promised my other set of friends that I'll be joining them in partying at a bar called T.  So, I went there, partied, drunk, and go gaga over the DJ (which was handsome, by the way, but his music  sucks). To make the story short, I got home earlier at 4am. I just jumped into my bed, literally. No shower, no changing of clothes. I just wanted to sleep. 

Amazingly, here I am, still up and alive! I have so many moments like this when I ask myself how I am able to survive this kind of lifestyle. And guess what, I still have to go out in about an hour to be with friends. Killing myself the second time around, eh? lol

Cheers to my escapades!!!!!!

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" blog-

Kimdee

Dear Diary,

I'm supposed to log-out already when suddenly, I found this video on a video-sharing site (call it the Y) and can't help but laugh and share this to you.

You see, Kim and Enchong performed a dance number in ASAP sometime last March (I know this is kinda obsolete but since this is my blog and I just found out about it, I'm still going to post it. Me being boss!) and it was super-duper epic FAIL!!!! Fail like what happened to me 2 nights ago. 

This is what's so bad with Philippine showbiz. Singers are forced to become dancers, dancers are forced to become singers, and those without talent are forced to do both! Funny, right? Right! 

So, here's the link of the video from a video-sharing site: 

[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zn3pSnU7Aw4&sns=fb]

Laugh all you can!

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" blog -

 

 photo from asianpopcorn.com

 

Women are like police...

Dear Diary,

I think women's insecurity and overacting is not the issue when it comes to men who were found guilty to have cheated. And it's also true for men. At the first place, some women would not become insecure and overacting if their man did not broke her trust and vice versa. And I also believe the quote below is applicable to all that even in a trial court, you may present all the evidences you have but the most reliable of all will always come from the "suspect itself". Confession, that is.

And why did I post it here? Let's just say this is the reason why I became so emotional two nights ago and the reason for the birth of this blog. The post and the one who posted this is not my problem but the person who posted comments on the post. Get me? Nah.

I'm not gonna explain further since I don't wanna talk about it anymore. For now, ciao! 

-The Emotional Blogger of "The Diary of an Emotional" blog-

The Diary of an Emotional Blogger

Dear Diary, 

I really don't know how to start this "The Diary of an Emotional" blog of mine. One thing's for sure, I wanna write and publish  a book someday but I don't know how it's going to happen. First thing's first, when writing a book, it's very hard to decide what topic should be discussed. Since I'm a multi-talented, jack-of-all-trades kind of person (insert SARCASM here), I kinda don't know what part of my body (personality, for chrissake) would I be interested to talk about.

I really don't know how to start this "The Diary of an Emotional" blog of mine. One thing's for sure, I'm actually not feeling well today. Not really the sick type, but more of a depressive type. By the way, it did not start today but last night. And I've shifted moods by then.  Don't ask me the reason because it's a long story. But hhhmmm, perhaps it would be a good topic to be discussed for my first ever to-be-published book. So, I'm gonna discern whether I would write about it or not.

I really don't know how to start this "The Diary of an Emotional" blog of mine. One thing's for sure, I'm gonna vent out everything here. Call me "Emotional", I'll embrace that label wholeheartedly. But ssshh, I'm not gonna talk about work here. I don't wanna be kick-off (kicked-out, you mean) from my current employment. On the other hand, I am also going to talk about happy moments, aww moments, wacky moments, and random moments of my ever emotional life! This is going to be fun (at least, for me!)

So, why "The Diary of an Emotional"? Oh c'mon! Common sense, please!

The Diary of an Emotional Part 2 will be up next.

For now, gotta go and quarrel someone. Ooops!

-The Emotional Blogger of the "The Diary of an Emotional" blog